Today its 5 years since
Emmanuel had gone from our lives, leave a vacuum a place that can never be
filled by anyone else. Today we as a family attended the mass, and prayed for
our son, and then I went to work for few hours; David and Dorothy told me to
come directly to the cemetery in the afternoon, so that we can pay homage to
our child, light candles and put some flowers with love and gratitude.
Visiting the cemetery is
not a joyful experience at all, and for me it’s very depressing as it reminds
me of my child who is no more; despite all this I agreed to join them. Today
there was also death of an elderly person in our parish; so David rushed for
the funeral, leaving us at home.
I believe that Death is
an important reminder for me; as it helps me make choices that are life giving
and also keeps me grounded that one day I too must leave this earth and what I
have done with my life will matter the most.
Today as I feel sad on one side about my son; I am
also happy that Emmanuel has now become an experience of faith, hope and
courage. Emmanuel will continue to be part of our smiles, kind deeds, whenever
we show love, care, concern at each other… he will live in our memory
constantly reminding us that earth is not a permanent place for any one… and it’s
the small little deeds in life that
matters the most.
“In
the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your
years.”
I can't even begin to imagine how you are feeling, Angela. I hear you though and feel with you. In a few days it will be five years since I lost my Mom and each day I feel the pain. But as you beautifully put it, we become stronger from what we've lost.
ReplyDeleteHugs and love to you. God bless your loving heart.
Thanks vidya for being here... hearing so much about your mom through your blog posts, it definitely must be very hurting to believe that she is no more now... yes we become stronger and we keep them alive in us and take the lessons given to us.. thanks again, hugs to you
ReplyDeleteGenevieve I am sorry I am coming very late to your post on the memory of your beautiful son Emmanuel and the anniversary of his death. May his memory continue to live in joy and sadness smiles and tears. If I was there I would lay a beautiful rose in honour of him ��
ReplyDeleteSusan:) don't worry about coming late. I am glad you are here and thanks for your wishes, Yes Susan He will remain alive in everything I do bringing meaning and purpose to my existence. Thanks for the honour.. am sure my son is smiling from above listening to your desire of placing a rose. .. love and hugs to you !!
DeleteOh dear friend, a very moving post.. It touches me deeply to read it and also to see how you live with it. He will always be in your mind and in your heart. Sending you and you loved ones lots of warm thoughts and hugs.
ReplyDeleteThanks Eli - thats so kind of you, appreciate you for being here and your words strengthens me from within and feel the warmth bringing me comfort and peace, thanks dear :)
DeleteThis post tugged at my heart. The memories of your son will always be in your heart because those who touch our lives .... stay in our hearts forever. A big Hug to you Genevive! You are a strong woman!
ReplyDeleteThanks Shilpa ! I am so glad to have you here and thanks for the compliment. I feel so privileged and good to hear from you, love and hugs to shilpa !!
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