He helped me understand what unconditional love was, leading me to a deeper discovery of myself. He opened up a new world for me, wherein, smile, cheerfulness and laughter were in plenty, music and dance was part of every day life, His language was hugs and kisses. Without uttering a word, he build relationships in our neighbourhood.
He fascinated me and showed me what matters most in life, his simplicity was mind blowing, his generosity and gratitude overwhelmed me. With him in my life, every day was new experience, and it is still continues to be. For he made me cry, laugh, sing, dance,pray,read,play keeping me happy always.
We named our son Emmanuel, which means “God is with us” the choice was a deliberate one, as we wanted to reinforce our faith in God to let ourselves know that God is with us. That’s how a very special journey began 9 years ago and lasted for 7 years, bringing in gifts that I can cherish for a life time.
While I am glad for all the learning’s that I had, my heart even now finds it difficult to accept the way he left us, so suddenly and the trauma he went thru seems unforgettable.It hurts me to recall the last few days of his life, wherein in I watched him suffer everyday and finally let go of him from our lives once and for all. I and my husband held his hands on either side, while he was on the ventilator in the ICCU ward breathing his last breath.
I stood there as his mom unable to do anything. The sorrow is still very deep inside, a lot of questions remains unanswered, with great difficulty I messaged him from my heart and told him, how much I loved him, and left the decision for him, for it was terrible for me to see him struggle in front of my eyes. Emmanuel left us on January 2, 2011 leaving me devastated – I grieved for days and months and gradually have picked up my strength once again with the help of my family and friends to continue my journey…….
”What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.” – Helen Keller