Positive steps for a New Direction

Some of the steps I have taken to move on in my life are as follows:

Loving myself


I began to appreciate and love myself again for the way I carried myself in a tough situation without losing hope and not getting despaired.

I began to treat myself well; I resumed my walks, picked up comfortable sandals for my legs that have carried me all around for so many years of my life.

I spent time with myself in meditation, every morning enjoying the company of myself.

I started practicing affirmations, conditioning my mind, stating that I am a child of God and I am divinely guided. All is well in my life

Giving away myself

I started accepting invitations from families to visit them and accept their condolences.

I have resumed taking up sessions on stress management, self esteem and personal growth sessions which I enjoy and find exciting to share with my young friends.

I have taken up a part time work in counseling youngsters in suicide prevention counseling centre, which gives me flexibility in my schedule to be with my daughter.

Being Grateful

I continued to be in a state of gratitude believing that every step towards achieving something is bigger and better than my current situation.

Made my thank you list – for all the people who have been with me in the time of crisis, I took the opportunity to email and make those phone calls to show my gratitude.

I Design my own life

I am relooking at my life to chart my own course in life, finding ways which will help me to fulfill the purpose of my existence.

I enjoy the journey of life

I remind myself this quote by Richard L.Evans that says “Don’t let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.”

I am an Evolving Person, I am still in the process of evolving, I am not a has-been. I am a will be.”

Be Happy !

My Purpose in life

The last two months have been extremely stressful, challenging for me especially dealing with the loss of my son, it was very painful as I could not bring myself to believe that my son who was full of life is no more now.  Everything in the house reminded me of him, his clothes as I settled in order to give away, his medicines, his shoes, sandals and a whole lot of teaching material I accumulated to teach him, one by one I started clearing it finding my way to give away.

I could not control my emotions, and I wept and wept only to be disturbed by my daughter who caught me crying, asking me innocently, why are you crying now, are you still thinking of Emmanuel.  Suddenly I shifted my focus to what has been happening with me, and looked at my daughter who was waiting for me to take her out to the play ground where she could cycle, and I would be around helping her to ride. 

I did not want to think of Emmanuel now, I realized how attached I was to him, and in the last few months he had come so much closer to me, that I felt proud and happy for the joy he brought to the family.  I told myself, that I needed to let go of him, otherwise I might end up creating guilt for my daughter who is alive.  

Life has so much to offer, and I reminded myself that there is a purpose to everything, Emmanuel had a purpose for my life, he has taught me to slow down and enjoy life, enabled me to see that true beauty of a person is in the love and kindness  shared.

I made up my mind to take some decisions to bring in changes that I desired for in my life. The moment I made a decision, things changed since then, I have been able to reach out to persons who I have never met in life, and now I feel happy to be involved in meaningful work. 

Be Happy !

 

What Can You Do Today?

A central teaching in most spiritual traditions is “what you wish to experience, provide for another”. Look to see, now, what it is you wish to experience in your own life, and in the world. Then see if there is another for whom you may be the source of that.

• If you wish to experience peace, provide peace for another
• If you wish to experience that you are safe, cause others to know that they are safe
• If you wish to better understand seemingly incomprehensible things, help another to better understand.
• If you wish to heal your own sadness or anger, seek to heal the sadness or anger or another.

Those others are waiting for you now. They are looking to you for guidance, for help, for courage, for strength, for understanding, and for assurance at this hour. Most of all, they are looking to you for love. My religion is simple. My religion is kindness.
– Dalai Lama

I am inspired by the above lines, especially at this moment when I am experiencing grief, sadness, emptiness and void after the death of my son. I am beginning to realize, that these emotions too have their own purpose in my life.

I am glad for family and friends who are extremely kind and supportive, and I have allowed myself to be healed. Even though the memories of my son are fresh in my mind, and I get overwhelmed whenever I think of him, but I am happy for pain, as I am sure that it will fulfill a purpose on this earth.

I believe life is full of opportunities, I am responding to my call, how about you. What are you experiencing now, that you can provide for another?

Have a meaningful day !

Loving Memory Of Mario Emmanuel

Born 8 December, 2003

Died on 2 January 2011

Time has taken me from you,
Although not very far.
I'll be watching through the sunshine
And through the brightest star.

I'll be watching all of you,
From the heavens up above.
So take good care of each other
And carry all my love.

If you're ever wondering
If I'm there, here's where you can start.
Take a look inside yourself
Deep within your heart.

I'll always be your baby,
Your child (grandchild), your best friend.
So anytime you need me,
Close your eyes I'm back again.

A few lines from “Gone Too Soon”

Love from, Daddy, Mummy, Fruity, Grandma, Uncles, Aunts and Cousins